Unfaithfulness

This is going to be a harsh kinda topic for me to write. It's a topic that has been on my mind the last couple of days and I feel like I just need to let it out.

What would you do if you were with someone who was unfaithful? Would you stay with that person or would you leave them? What if you stayed and they eventually cheated on you? Then would you stay? It seems like that is happening so much  these days that people are cheating on each other and not really thinking about what is going to happen to them. I'm going to tell you a little about my past and how things are different for me.

I was in a relationship and I meet someone and I let it go to far. I slept with the guy that I just met not that long ago. I hid it from the guy I was dating for like 6 months before I finally confessed that I cheated on him. We separated but decided that we would try to work things out. He told me that in order to forgive me for what I had done, that he would do it to me but he didn't know when it would happen. A couple of years later, he did cheat on me and for the most part I understood because I knew that he was going to do it eventually. Excpet I was mad at who he was going to do it with, he slept with a co-worker who had become a friend of mine, a really close friend. I was hurt because I was pasted out on the couch from having to much alcohol that night. I woke up at some point and could hear something going on in my bedroom but I didn't move from the couch. They were having sex in our bed, I was devasted and hurt. Not so much cause it was happening but becuase I was pasted out on the couch and they were in our bed. What was I suppose to think? I still to this day don't know what to think of the whole situation. I am no longer friends with the girl for whatever reason, but that's okay.

Now I am in a relationship with someone who is use to his ex doing the same thing (or at least that is what it seems to be). She would leave for a week or so at a time and then come back. He is use to that and feels like I would do the same thing. However that is not the case, I know that I am truly in love. And you may ask how do I know that; this is how: when I am out in public (with or without him) I don't even look at another guy. I am not tempted to even think about another guy because my heart is completely in love with my guy. Tempation can come but it won't win me over. I know this because it hasn't yet and will not. I have the strenght to not let myself be tempted.

And if I was tempted, then I would be unfaithful to him. I know what it's like to have someone cheat on you and I can't do that. I was wrong to do it in my previous relationship and I know that now. No matter what the reasons are, cheating is not the anwer. If you are not happy in your current relationship then get out of it. I wasn't happy and I was trying to find a way to make me happy. I know now, that no matter what until I turned it over to God I wouldn't be happy. No guy can make me happy unless I am happy with myself. And I wasn't! Being happy is something that is important to your well being.  I am completely happy with my current boyfriend. I couldn't imagine my life without him. He makes me feel whole and complete.

God has really been working in my life with this subject through a Bible study called "Forever in Love with Jesus". It's really opened my eyes that I made a lot of mistakes in the past but that He still loves me. Nothing can separate me from the love of Christ. In Hosea, it talks about how Hosea is told by Christ to go and marry a woman who he knows will not be faithful to him. Hosea was a prophet, how would this look to him that he would do this? But he did, because Christ told him to do it. Are we listening to Christ like Hosea did? Hosea's wife, eventually gave up her adulterous ways after some time, and Hosea took her back into his house. He forgave her for all that she had done and still loved her. Can we do this today?

I can honestly say that I can't. After being cheated on and also doing the cheating, it's really hard. I couldn't trust myself and I couldn't trust him. But I still stayed until I knew that if I didn't leave that things would never get better for myself. I have learned to love myself again and put my hope and trust in Christ. Yeah it hasn't been an easy road for me, but I know that He will love me forever. I should have never taken my eyes off of Him. However, I do know this temptation will come (because the devil is always on the prowl), but with the help of the Lord I can overcome it. He has truly given me the person that I will spend the rest of my life with. And my eyes will never wonder to another male because my heart has been captivated by someone very special to me. He completely loves me and wants no one else. Is always by my side when I'm sick and feeling down. Ready to listen to me when I need someone to talk to. Doesn't judge me for my past mistakes. And I know that if temptation would arise he wouldn't look at another woman or even think about it.

So the whole point to this is: if your not happy in your current relationship then please get out of it before you get hurt. I know it's not easy but it can be done. And in the long run it will be so much better for you. Staying in a relationship where you are not happy will just make matters worse in the long run. You deserve someone that will make you happy!