Friday, November 30, 2012

30 Days of Thanks

So it's Thanksgiving time, and I am reminded of the many blessings that I have. This blog will be all about my 30 days and what I'm thankful for.

Day 1: My parents-no matter where I am at in my life, my parents are always there for me. They have taught me so much, and no matter if I was not making the right decision, they let me and try making me choose a different direction. I LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD!

Day 2: Laughter from the kids-Getting to hear the kids laugh while Danny is playing with him. They love playing with their daddy and it's so much better when he can play with them after school and when he is off of work.

Day 3: Tara-she brings me joy when I am sad. And is always willing to help watch the kids when we need her too. She is already my step-daughter in my heart and I love her very much!

Day 4: My church-has really accepted me for who I am. I can come and not feel like I am being judged, which is so awesome. I love my church!

Day 5: Jennifer-no matter how long goes between us talking or seeing each other, she is one of my best friends. I love knowing that she is one of my true friends.

Day 6: Danny-wow, I can't believe today makes one year that we have been together. Happy 1 Year Anniversary. I LOVE YOU! It feels like it's been longer than a year, but it hasn't. I can't wait to see what God has in store for us in the future. It will be a great joy to go through this life with you.

Day 7: Opinions-we are all entitled to our own opinions. I will voice my opinion on a matter that reaches dear to my heart. If you don't agree with my opinion, that's okay, you are entitled to you own opinion. Makes me mad when people want to voice their opinion but not listen to your opinion. It's a two-way street!

Day 8: Baking-so glad that I can bake and not be pressed for time. Baking is so much fun, I love it. Wish I could do more of it.

Day 9: God's Promises-they are new every morning and He is faithful. PRAISE GOD! His love never fails.

Day 10: Sunsets, sunrises, and quiet times-so nice to just sit back and watch the sunrise or set and enjoy the quiet of things. Lovely to see the beautiful colors of a sunset or sunrise. I'm reminded of the summer I spent in AZ of all the beautiful sunsets and sunrises I saw on the canyon.

Day 11: Veterans-for each and every one of you who have paid the price so we can be free. And for the ones who will continue to join the services so we can be free. THANK YOU!

Day 12: Close people-for people who I hold near and dear to my heart. Your friendship has meant the world to me. I don't ever want to take your friendship for granted.

Day 13: Justin's silliness-even on mornings when I'm extremely tired, he always makes me laugh. He has come a long way in the time that I have known him. He is a blessing to be around! I LOVE YOU JUSTIN MICHAEL ALLEN! Keep smiling and making me laugh with your silly ways.

Day 14: Carly-just like with Jennifer, no matter how much time goes by we are still close. She is always willing to give a hug when I am in need of one. Can't wait to be able to see her again.

Day 15: LifeGroup-this has been an amazing journey of discovering things about me and see things that God was trying to show me. The ladies in the group have been amazing and I will be sad when this one is over with.

Day 16: Mrs. Della-she has been like my mom up here and I miss my Friday conversations with her. I looked forward to the Friday's that I could visit with her when she came into Domino's.

Day 17: Danny's Family-from day one they have accepted me for me and as a part of Danny's life. They love me and I love them. They have made me feel welcome in their homes and in their lives.

Day 18: Relaxing-even though this normally only happens when I'm sick, it's still nice to be able to relax and not worry about a whole lot of things.

Day 19: Craziness of Traci-she is a joy to be around when she is feeling well. She runs around the house doing silly stuff that makes me laugh even when I'm sad. It's hard when she isn't around to cheer me up. I LOVE YOU TRACI!

Day 20: Hand holder-someone to hold my hand when I'm sick and tell me that everything will be okay. I hate being sick but knowing I have someone by my side makes it all better.

Day 21: Getting out of hospital-I hate being in the hospital but it would have been worse if I had to be in over Thanksgiving. Glad that I was able to get out.

Day 22: My Past-It's made me who I am today and has taught me many lessons. May not be the best past, but it's my past and you don't have to like it. Happy Thanksgiving!

Day 23: Brother Doug and Mrs. Joyce-they have been like a second set of parents to me. I am so thankful that they are in my life and haven't given up on me. They have truly blessed me beyond words.

Day 24: Tracey-truly one of my best friends. Always a phone call or text away when I need someone to talk too. Was there for me when I needed someone at work and she was working with me. I miss and love ya Tracey!

Day 25: Grandfather-You were my first love of a man besides my daddy. I know you are watching over me from heaven and I can't wait to see your face again. I miss you so much today and everyday. You left us 21 years ago today, but you are still in my heart.

Day 26: Beautiful colors- the colors that surround the changing of season is so pretty. From the leaves changing colors to flowers in bloom. Or the colors of a sunset or sunrise.

Day 27: Grandmother-I know you are with Grandpa right now and that you are watching over me from heaven. I miss and love you so much. You have only been gone for 5 years but it feels like forever.

Day 28: Pen Pals- I have been blessed with some amazing pen friends and I don't know how to thank them enough for the joy that they bought into my life. Times have been tough but knowing that I have someone on the other end of a letter praying for me is awesome. Thank you for being amazing friends!

Day 29: Nieces and Nephews- they bring so much joy into my life when I am around them. I don't get to see them nearly enough and I can't wait to see them soon. Especially the one that I haven't met yet. I LOVE YOU: Dakota, Christian, Gabriel, Bryson, Akira, Nevaeh, and Genaveve.

Day 30: Life-it hasn't been an easy road but I know that I have some pretty important people on my side and a God in heaven who loves me. And will always be by my side when I need Him and when I don't. He is truly an amazing GOD!

Wow, I can't believe I actually did all 30 days. I have so much more to be thankful for. Maybe it'll be my next blog topic. We should give thanks everyrday to God for what He has given us. Praise Him through it all.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Struggles

This life wasn't promised to be easy, I know that. But it seems like it's so hard right now to make ends meet for everyone. It feels like sometimes you have to pay a bill late just to buy groceries for your house. People go without to make sure that their kids have what they need. When you think you are finally about to catch a break, something else comes up. Or you find out someone else is in need and they are needing help.

I have some serious issues with certain things about people struggling. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind helping someone out if I can. I have a problem when I'm offering help and they are very ungrateful about it. And they think that you will always help them out. If you are already struggling with paying your bills on time, then don't take on more than you can handle. I have no sympathy for you when you do this. You know that you can't afford it but you are going to try it anyway. You are living beyond your means. Don't get me wrong, I've been there and done that. I've learned my lesson the hard way, take some advice from the ones that have gone through this before. Figure out what you need to do to get your bills up to date and pay them. Quit borrowing money from people with no intent to pay them back. Get off your butt and find a job. Do something to help out. And when you say you are going to pay people back, pay them back.

If you are getting aid from the government to buy food, don't abuse the system. It's wrong for the people that are honest with the government that don't hardly get anything from them. Especially when you are telling them that your boyfriend or husband don't live with you and they do. And to top it off they have good jobs. Quit lying and be honest about it. Yeah you may not get as much as you are now, but their are people who need the help more than you do. And you don't need all the help that you are getting when they have good jobs. So many people stuggle to put food on the table each month, but won't think about asking for help because they think it makes them have a label. No what makes you have a label on you, is when you abuse the system. You wouldn't want someone to abuse you, so why abuse the system for? Or it's really frustrating when you get a lot in food stamps and sell some for cash so you can buy your drugs. REALLY....this is supposed to be used for food your house not for your drug dealing friends.

Or what else makes me really mad with some people who get aid from the government is using it to their adavantage to eat steaks or other expensive things when they get their food stamps. They are proud to be using the government for their own personal gain (my opinion). Yes I understand that you have kids, but don't go boasting about the fact that you are eating steak and my tax dollars are paying for it. Yes don't get me wrong, I've lived with someone who has gotten food stamps but he didn't eat steaks or anything. He got what he needed because it wasn't a whole lot. And now it's being threatened to be cut off for whatever reason. It's not right! I would be ashamed if I was getting food stamps and boasting about what I was eating because of it.

Through all my stuggles with everything, it's made me a stronger and better person. Which is what it should do in the end. But for the ones not learning a lesson through their struggles, maybe it's time to wake up and realize that you are making some bad choices. Continue to make these choices, and you are ruining a lot in your life.  And the help that you have been rellying on won't be there anymore. Because I for one have had enough, I'm tired of bending over backwards for people and not seeing you do something for yourself for a change. Quit asking for handouts and start getting your life in order. Leaving beyond your means will eventually lead to a lot of heartache and pain. And people losing their trust in you to pay your bills on time. Do whatever it takes to get yourself and your family on the right track. Now this doesn't mean do something silly or stupid, I'm talking about consolidating your bills or filing bankruptcy. And don't take out any more new loans.

God has blessed me with a lot of people who have been by myside when I have needed them. Your friendship and love has been amazing. I can't thank you enough, and know that I will be here for you in whatever way I can when you need the help.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Opinions on Politics

We all have our opinions when it comes to things. And each of us likes to have our opinions heard. I don't have a problem when you want to voice your opinion, I have a problem when you don't want to hear mine. I never said you had to agree with my opinion, just listen to it like I listened to yours.

After this election on Tuesday everyone has an opinion or already had an opinion of what would happen. I think we were disappointed in the outcome though. It's time for a change to take place in our country. And I think many people thought Obama could do it; but he hasn't. Yes, he has gotten our military out of some places. But what about the ones still serving overseas because of this war. What's he going to do for them? Read somewhere online (Facebook) that they couldn't absentee vote because their stuff didn't get their on time. How wrong is it that they didn't get the chance to vote? They are out their everyday risking their lives for our freedom, but yet they couldn't exercise their right to vote. Would it have made a difference in the outcome of the election: maybe or maybe not, but I guess we will never know, now will we?

Tuesday was the first time I have ever voted in a Presidential election. I don't do it because I wanted a certain person to win. I did it so I could stop people from judging me for not doing it. It's my choice to vote or not, just like its your choice to do it. In the elections that I haven't voted in, I don't speak on what the government is doing. Doesn't mean I agree with everything they are doing though. I do feel that at times we have to trust them in what they are doing. Yes I understand that at times they don't make the right decisions. Or they say they will do one thing but do something completely different. I feel that every politician days what we want them to say in order to get elected.

I HATE discussing politics with people. Seems like this subject will bring the worse out in people. This topic divides families apart when they don't see eye to eye. Just like the subject of race, and a lot of people are saying race played apart in this race. I would say that happened back in 2008 when he was first voted in, but I don't think that is the only reason why he got into office. It  was not just the African-American race that helped with Obama getting into the White House for a second term, so did the Asian and Hispanic race. These races are what's taking jobs from us white people that need a job. How many of these people are on welfare or getting tax exempts from the government because of their race? IT'S NOT FAIR!!!! You have white people struggling to make it day by day but yet the government won't help them out. WRONG!

Here is my problem with Obama, my two biggest issues: his healthcare policy and the school lunch reform. Yes healthcare should be affordable to all but not the way he is going about it. You want to tax me if I don't have insurance, if I'm not on it, don't you think there is a reason why. I'm sure that people who are not taking insurance with their jobs is because they can't afford it. I had it when I worked yes, and I'm thankful that I did. But when I quit my job, I got insurance through a company that was nothing but a waste of my money. I paid $209 for a month of insurance, went to the doctor to get a script for my insulins and took them to the pharamcy. Went to pharmacy to pick them up and they were outrageous, $145 for one bottle and $141 for the other bottle. I was mad as all get out, because these bottles weren't much cheaper with the insurance maybe at the most $10 to $13. So I called the insurance company and canceled it because I wasn't paying that much a month for insurance and then getting the short end of the stick when it came to having to get medications. When we got the insurance, they knew I had diabetes and told me that my medications would be covered. Then I find out that they aren't going to cover any diabetes medicines, really? Not a good insurance company in my book!

School lunch reform, have you seen what is being given to kids in school today to eat? It's not enough for these kids. Two of my step-kids come home hungry everyday because their lunch isn't enough. Yes I'm feeding them before they go to school and I give them a snack when they come home. Plus a good size dinner (so don't tell me to feed my kids because I do). Part of my problem with this is you have kids that their school lunch might be their only meal for the day. And if they aren't getting enough food that means they are still hungry. It's a shame when kids are still hungry because they don't get enough to eat. Yes I understand that she wants kids to be eating healthier but our kids still need to be feed. If you don't have kids in the school system, then you should be aware that kids are going home hungry and may not have another meal until school the next day. What about these kids? They need someone speaking up for them! We need to make sure that the kids are getting enough to eat in schools. School lunches are expensive if you have to pay for them full price or reduced for the amount of food they are getting.

As a nation, we need to be praying for the next four years. GOD CAN WORK WONDERS IF WE ALL START PRAYING AND PUTTING OUR TRUST BACK IN HIM. PRAY WITHOUT CEASING! GOD WILL HEAR OUR CRY!

(This is my opinion so this is how I feel about things. If you don't like what my opinion is then that's okay. I respect your opinion of the matter)